Stuck.... in my own cloud...

Do you ever find yourself on the Internet... Facebook, blogs, celebrity sites, your inbox, My space... (who really uses My space??).... But do ever find yourself on the Internet doing absolutely NOTHING... Just looking for STUFF... stalking the web like a junkie looking for his next fix...jumping from profile to profile.. aimlessly.. looking for nothing in particular... late at night.. early in the morning... while at work??

I realized that lately, I do that more and more and more... Recently, I had to ask myself, "Self... What are you looking for???" And I realize that I MAY... just MAY be looking for something that I feel like I'm missing...but looking aimlessly because I don't know what that SOMETHING is just yet... It's such an unsettling feeling... And I think I navigate the great WORLD WIDE WEB because its supposed to be the source for everything. Need a restaurant? Need a job? Need a car? Need to contact someone?

EVERYTHING is now on the internet. But I also think that the web is also hindering me from getting to the core of what might be missing... because its the best/most convenient/time killing distraction ever .. EVER... ever created...

I wonder .. I truly wonder... What would have happened and where I would be in life right now if.... For every time I opened up facebook, I opened up the GOOD book... or if... every time I responded to a text/bbm, I said thank you GOD.... for nothing in particular but just thank you.................... OR if I took all the time I spent worrying about THIS and THAT, and invested it in just living and being happy in my moment, regardless of the moment...

What I really wonder is... where I would be if...... for every minute I spent writing/editing this blog for you to read...instead, I spent the time in my room, on my knees.... talking to HIM about what may be missing...
Man OH man... If I combined ALL the time and things I do... that waste time and distract me...... and used that towards building a stronger/healthier relationship with God/Spirituality... I GUARANTEE... I woulda been Jesus Executive Assistant by now...